RIP Mom. 11/18/10 <3
Just trying to get by without you.
Be kind to everyone you meet, for they are fighting a battle you know nothing about. ♥
This is a personal blog, with pictures/quotes/posts about my life and how I'm coping with the loss of my mom. I'm not on here to gain the most followers or any of that jazz, I just follow people who I find inspirational and who I can connect with. People can follow me or not, I'm just being real with this blog and trying to releases some of my emotions.
Anonymous asked: you're beautiful:)
you sometimes seem like you want to give up, but i want you to know, i care. i always will. you're amazing, and getting through everything you have to is crazy, i don't know how you do it. i believe in you, i think you can do anything you put your mind to. you deserve everything you've ever wanted and more.
xx
This just made me so happy, whoever you are, you are a beautiful soul. Thank you.
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I like deep conversations.
The ones where you can just sit down with one of your close friends and completely spill out your thoughts/feelings. Like how you’re doing, what may be currently bothering you, what’s stressing you out, etc. And the best part, getting feedback or advice from that person you’re talking to that might actually understand what you’re going through. It makes me feel less alone, and happier that I don’t have to keep bottling up all of my emotions.
Source: geleeeezy
Alone.
I hate being alone in this house. My dad is Phoenix, Nick is out with his friends. I’m alone in my room and it is scary. I’m a hazard to myself. I just am super depressed once again and no one can help, because I need someone here. I hate packing, because my mom always helped me pack and was there for me. I miss her so freaking much.
Now I just want to say fuck everything and do something stupid. I want to run and get lost, despite the fact that I’m not allowed to run right now. I want to get wasted and pass out, even though I’m not allowed more than one. But I don’t give a fuck about my health at the moment. I just want the pain to go away. I’m trying to avoid the urge to cut but it isn’t easy right now. I just want to be happy and not be this way
Bad Idea.
Watching the Notebook. I need to be kissed and cuddled with so badly right now. I know it isn’t probable for me to have any chance of meeting a new guy till I’m back at school. But I seriously need someone right now.
Something More…
Why the heck am I having such stupid thoughts? I’m home alone tonight, Nick has all his buddies downstairs, and I’m starting to feel really lonely. All I want to do is talk to a guy, any guy, and Nate is at work. And I just want to text Ryan and talk to him, despite how horrible of an idea that is. I need another guy in my life. I really enjoy having guys as good friends. Or else I need a friend who has time to talk to me when I need them. Gahhhhhhhhhhh. Stay strong self.
:D
I BROKE 170! It is hard to believe that last winter I was almost 30 pounds heavier than I am right now. I’m feeling so great about myself, and I’m continuing to get healthier. I’m going to yoga again today, and eating well and really watching my portions. I am so so proud of what I have accomplished, and so excited to see how far I can go with this.
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